I can not believe that it's November! I know everyone says that, but it this whole year has really just creeped away from me.

My mom had a garage sale yesterday and today and I put Ashley's basinet, acvity bouncer, old baby/pumpkin car seat, 7 bags of baby clothes, her activity mat, basically anything she wasn't using anymore and it all sold. I made about $52 from the stuff. Most of the baby clothes I pretty much gave away. There was this really nice lady who found out this couple was having a baby and they didn't have anything and even less money, so she was trying to get some stuff together for them, so I couldn't help but cut her deals (almost steals) on the stuff. In the end, I had one of those moments where my heart ached for just a second seeing all of her stuff go. But it was just taking up space and it's good that it goes to people who will use it and I made a little money off of it. (less I owe to mom and dad for the Florida trip)

Yesterday was really sad. I was on my way home from picking up Steve from downtown and there was a train stopped on the tracks in town. It had hit someone and the person died. It wasn't a very pretty site and the train was blocking most of crossings so we had to go back to almost Woodbury to get across the tracks. I swear I was in tears just seeing the people on the tracks trying to clean up the scene. There were 4 engines and two of them had to be moved because the body was underneath the 2nd engine. They ended up holding up tarps around the area while they tried to remove the body. It was so sad. They said he was just in town staying with his sister and was on some kind of medication for dementia or something, so they aren't sure if he had been drinking or if he just didn't hear the train. The conductor tried to get the man to move out of the way and he didn't. It just made me very sad. :(

Another Day in paradise

Okay, so I found out some really terrible news the other day. It wasn't happening to me, but I feel really bad about it. The person is one of my really good friends and my heart is just aching for her. I pray she finds the strength to deal with the tough road she has ahead of her.

All these things that are happening to her made me stop and think about my own life and things. It made me appreciate the things that I have right now. I need to worry less about all the dishes being done at the end of the night. I need to worry less about picking up all of those toys in the living room before I feel like I can "relax" and just watch tv or something. I need to stop trying to control every moment of my life and everyone else's life. I need to do a lot of things.

Life is way too short and precious to waste on the little stuff. You can be going along trying to make everything work and keep things together, and miss all the good stuff along the way. It sounds really dumb to quote the whole stopping to smell the roses, because with my luck, there'd be a bee waiting to sting my nose, but I want to feel optomistic like that. I want to look at the glass as half full and not half empty or blaming someone for taking milk out of the glass.

Is it impossible to change the perception that people have of you or is impossible to change the view that you have of yourself?